Daizan,
You are pointing at something which is really important. Somewhere in his Genjokoan commentary, Nishiari says that one has to give up everything, even the will to be enlightened, even the ambition to teach and help. One has to completly give it up in our tradition.
One day as I was getting up in my little cottage of Sussex and had the thought:" I am fed up with this, I don t want to receive transmission and be a teacher, I don t want anything of the sort!" This was after two decades of thinking about it, being kind of eager to be able to do it one day. And that fine morning, it all vanished. What a relief, a huge weight had been shifted from my shoulders, I felt so light, so refreshed! An hour later, that very morning, I received a phone call form my teacher telling me to get ready for transmission. I told him that I did not care about transmission, I just wanted to be a simple priest and he could keep it! He then said in a very soft voice: "this is an excellent place to start from."
Gassho
Taigu
You are pointing at something which is really important. Somewhere in his Genjokoan commentary, Nishiari says that one has to give up everything, even the will to be enlightened, even the ambition to teach and help. One has to completly give it up in our tradition.
One day as I was getting up in my little cottage of Sussex and had the thought:" I am fed up with this, I don t want to receive transmission and be a teacher, I don t want anything of the sort!" This was after two decades of thinking about it, being kind of eager to be able to do it one day. And that fine morning, it all vanished. What a relief, a huge weight had been shifted from my shoulders, I felt so light, so refreshed! An hour later, that very morning, I received a phone call form my teacher telling me to get ready for transmission. I told him that I did not care about transmission, I just wanted to be a simple priest and he could keep it! He then said in a very soft voice: "this is an excellent place to start from."
Gassho
Taigu
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