In a recent chat with you, Jundo, I asked for advice on how I should try to return to the ZZ’ line while sitting and having wandering thoughts (to others: the ZZ’ line = open awareness - from Uchiyama’s book ‘Opening the Hand of Thought’). Your response was: ‘don’t try, just do. Didn’t really understand it fully there and then. How can you do anything without trying? But have reflected a bit and and I think it’s starting to dawn on me. Could use some feedback on whether I’m getting there
To try to return to the ZZ’ line has a sense of resistance to it. There is some struggle. You want things to be different from what they are. Be somewhere else than where you are. You try to be strong in order to lift heavier things. You try to study hard in order to get a deep understanding. You try to stay or return to the ZZ’ line in order to have a successful sitting. In other words, you try to achieve something.
To just return to the ZZ’ line has a sense of dropping all judgments. When you notice your wandering thoughts, there is no judging, no fault, and no lack of performance. It is all ok. It is all part of the sitting. And you just return to the ZZ’ line. Like a physical reflex. An instinct. Like when you hug your daughter back when she hugs you. Like how you eat when you are hungry and sleep when you are tired. You just return. It is complete acceptance.
To 'try' stands in conflict with shikantaza as a whole and complete action and the ‘nothing more to achieve’. To ‘just do’ does not. No matter how many wandering thoughts we have while sitting we just return to the ZZ’ line. We don’t try. To have this relationship with wandering thoughts (the ‘just do’) during sitting seems to be a key aspect.
Does this seem like a reasonable understanding? All comments are welcome
Sorry for running long.
Gassho, Michael
Satlah
To try to return to the ZZ’ line has a sense of resistance to it. There is some struggle. You want things to be different from what they are. Be somewhere else than where you are. You try to be strong in order to lift heavier things. You try to study hard in order to get a deep understanding. You try to stay or return to the ZZ’ line in order to have a successful sitting. In other words, you try to achieve something.
To just return to the ZZ’ line has a sense of dropping all judgments. When you notice your wandering thoughts, there is no judging, no fault, and no lack of performance. It is all ok. It is all part of the sitting. And you just return to the ZZ’ line. Like a physical reflex. An instinct. Like when you hug your daughter back when she hugs you. Like how you eat when you are hungry and sleep when you are tired. You just return. It is complete acceptance.
To 'try' stands in conflict with shikantaza as a whole and complete action and the ‘nothing more to achieve’. To ‘just do’ does not. No matter how many wandering thoughts we have while sitting we just return to the ZZ’ line. We don’t try. To have this relationship with wandering thoughts (the ‘just do’) during sitting seems to be a key aspect.
Does this seem like a reasonable understanding? All comments are welcome
Sorry for running long.
Gassho, Michael
Satlah
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