Sorry for running long.
I had to wake up earlier than usual today to get some stuff done and I was still very sleepy when I hobbled out of bed. I went to go sit my morning zazen and had a really tough time staying awake. Around halfway through the session, I just decided to stop fighting it and get up from the cushion.
At this point, I went to go get my morning coffee, which I usually have after my morning zazen. After drinking my coffee, I felt alert enough to be able to do zazen without falling asleep, so I sat my whole session without nodding off.
It definitely seems like caffeine aids my attentiveness during zazen, and so I don't think it's a coincidence that we associate zen practice with green tea. But as far as I am aware, the tea-drinking usually takes place AFTER zazen and not before. I wonder if by having caffeine before zazen, I am over-relying on an outside substance to aid me in "just sitting" rather than just my own efforts. It feels a bit like performance-enhancing drugs for an athlete.
Zen is beyond good and bad, so I'm trying not to judge myself for this too harshly, but I'm curious what others think about using caffeine to wake up before zazen.
Gassho,
Anthony, satlah
I had to wake up earlier than usual today to get some stuff done and I was still very sleepy when I hobbled out of bed. I went to go sit my morning zazen and had a really tough time staying awake. Around halfway through the session, I just decided to stop fighting it and get up from the cushion.
At this point, I went to go get my morning coffee, which I usually have after my morning zazen. After drinking my coffee, I felt alert enough to be able to do zazen without falling asleep, so I sat my whole session without nodding off.
It definitely seems like caffeine aids my attentiveness during zazen, and so I don't think it's a coincidence that we associate zen practice with green tea. But as far as I am aware, the tea-drinking usually takes place AFTER zazen and not before. I wonder if by having caffeine before zazen, I am over-relying on an outside substance to aid me in "just sitting" rather than just my own efforts. It feels a bit like performance-enhancing drugs for an athlete.
Zen is beyond good and bad, so I'm trying not to judge myself for this too harshly, but I'm curious what others think about using caffeine to wake up before zazen.
Gassho,
Anthony, satlah
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