I sit at least once a day and my “Insight” tracker says 893 consecutive days since Feb. 2017...
Yet, I still don’t know if I am doing anything right.
The “Yes, we let thoughts go, do not grab on or become tangled in thoughts.” Is a constant battle for me. If I do not realy concentrate on not getting tangled in thoughts, and I mean “realy concentrate” on noticing thoughts entering my mind to then let them go, I am lost in yet the next thaught... And than I think I should not concentrate on that and than the next thought is there.... and than I let go, and than I try not to concentrate on nothing and than I start thinking about that and than I think I’m useless. And than I think it is all good, and than I still don’t know if I am doing anything right... So I keep trying not trying... Will something happen some day? There seems to be very little progress. Should there be progress?
???
But I keep sitting every single day... Am I stupid?
(And these are my “todays” reflexions. Sometimes it is worse and sometimes I don’t worry so much...)
Gassho/SatToday
Yet, I still don’t know if I am doing anything right.
The “Yes, we let thoughts go, do not grab on or become tangled in thoughts.” Is a constant battle for me. If I do not realy concentrate on not getting tangled in thoughts, and I mean “realy concentrate” on noticing thoughts entering my mind to then let them go, I am lost in yet the next thaught... And than I think I should not concentrate on that and than the next thought is there.... and than I let go, and than I try not to concentrate on nothing and than I start thinking about that and than I think I’m useless. And than I think it is all good, and than I still don’t know if I am doing anything right... So I keep trying not trying... Will something happen some day? There seems to be very little progress. Should there be progress?
???
But I keep sitting every single day... Am I stupid?
(And these are my “todays” reflexions. Sometimes it is worse and sometimes I don’t worry so much...)
Gassho/SatToday
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