Hi There,
I don't have any advice, but wanted to say that I can sympathize. I had major surgery that made sitting impossible for months. I tried my best to "sit" in bed, or laying on the floor, but couldn't get settled like I could previous.
Eventually, I became ao frustrated that I stopped trying. I did no zazen for months and started to wonder if I'd lapse in my Zen practice forever.
Maybe I needed the break for some perspective. But I started again. I guess I've been on this path long enough now that I can't overcome its momentum for too long.
Anyway, I still can't sit like I used to, in what I thought was the "best" way (due to neuropathy and scar tissue). So, I sit another way, and really, it's fine.
So don't feel bad if you get frustrated, and stop, or "sit" differently, or less frequently, etc. No help adding guilt on top of the physical ailment.
We're always here for support. Take care of yourself!
-satToday
I don't have any advice, but wanted to say that I can sympathize. I had major surgery that made sitting impossible for months. I tried my best to "sit" in bed, or laying on the floor, but couldn't get settled like I could previous.
Eventually, I became ao frustrated that I stopped trying. I did no zazen for months and started to wonder if I'd lapse in my Zen practice forever.
Maybe I needed the break for some perspective. But I started again. I guess I've been on this path long enough now that I can't overcome its momentum for too long.
Anyway, I still can't sit like I used to, in what I thought was the "best" way (due to neuropathy and scar tissue). So, I sit another way, and really, it's fine.
So don't feel bad if you get frustrated, and stop, or "sit" differently, or less frequently, etc. No help adding guilt on top of the physical ailment.
We're always here for support. Take care of yourself!
-satToday
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