Hello everyone,
in my recent life, I seem to have a bigger problem with one specific topic: sharing things with people but not exaggerating it. I still go to school and there are already a few troubles I have. If someone needs money to buy a meal in one of the breaks, should I offer it without wanting to have it back? I can't go around and collect the money people owe me, this doesn't seem like an act someone mindful would do. I'm sorry that I can't really explain it, so I will use another example.
I share a Netflix account with two of my friends, my dad pays for it with his credit card. So I told them that I would just need 2-3€ by them a month for Netflix, my dad told me that I can keep the money. My friends payed me once 20€ for a few months, but after I told them I used it for myself they stopped paying and were getting really disappointed. They thought I tricked them or something like that, they just say "I want to see your dad and give him the money myself!", today one even said "Tell your dad that he shall come around if he wants his money" (in German of course, it didn't sound as harsh as here). And here is my problem. I am also disappointed of them because they take this for granted and didn't pay the money for Netflix for a year now. They even share our account now with someone of our class without telling me. It's okay to me, but I like to be asked about such stuff.
This text seems very ego centered and selfish I guess. I don't want to control them or to gain more money, I just get angry when I think about the whole situation how I "give an inch and they take a mile". I don't want anyone to say me that I'm right, I just want someone to comment this and maybe help me. My biggest problem is that I get angry over this.
And this is not the only one. I tend to give people something without expecting something back but they keep to take. I often seem to draw the shortest straw as I want to please everyone else first. When to be "selfish"? This is a big topic to me so I would be very grateful if someone could help me with this.
Gassho, Max
in my recent life, I seem to have a bigger problem with one specific topic: sharing things with people but not exaggerating it. I still go to school and there are already a few troubles I have. If someone needs money to buy a meal in one of the breaks, should I offer it without wanting to have it back? I can't go around and collect the money people owe me, this doesn't seem like an act someone mindful would do. I'm sorry that I can't really explain it, so I will use another example.
I share a Netflix account with two of my friends, my dad pays for it with his credit card. So I told them that I would just need 2-3€ by them a month for Netflix, my dad told me that I can keep the money. My friends payed me once 20€ for a few months, but after I told them I used it for myself they stopped paying and were getting really disappointed. They thought I tricked them or something like that, they just say "I want to see your dad and give him the money myself!", today one even said "Tell your dad that he shall come around if he wants his money" (in German of course, it didn't sound as harsh as here). And here is my problem. I am also disappointed of them because they take this for granted and didn't pay the money for Netflix for a year now. They even share our account now with someone of our class without telling me. It's okay to me, but I like to be asked about such stuff.
This text seems very ego centered and selfish I guess. I don't want to control them or to gain more money, I just get angry when I think about the whole situation how I "give an inch and they take a mile". I don't want anyone to say me that I'm right, I just want someone to comment this and maybe help me. My biggest problem is that I get angry over this.
And this is not the only one. I tend to give people something without expecting something back but they keep to take. I often seem to draw the shortest straw as I want to please everyone else first. When to be "selfish"? This is a big topic to me so I would be very grateful if someone could help me with this.
Gassho, Max
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