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  • Hoko
    Member
    • Aug 2009
    • 456

    Yikes

    Just finished evening zazen. Wanted to write this while it was fresh.

    I don't want to over-talk this but I had a moment where everything just went "poof". The phrase "body and mind drop off" definitely came to mind. It wasn't exactly pleasant either. If I'm being honest it scared the crap out of me. I had a "what the hell" moment and scrambled back to "normal". I had to spend several minutes finding my breath and "opening back up again". Freaky.

    And yes, I know this is just "zazen scenery" so I'm not going to make a big deal out of it but yowza. As I write this I'm already halfway to "did that actually happen?". Like waking up from an intense dream and trying to explain it to someone; it just sounds goofy. That's it.

    Gassho
    K2
    #SatToday

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  • Jundo
    Treeleaf Founder and Priest
    • Apr 2006
    • 40351

    #2
    Lovely. Seeing through oneself even for an instant can be a bit jarring, and comes in many ways. Ya fell off the Kilff, ha! (tee hee)

    Now, some tea.

    Gassho, J

    SatToday

    (For other folks, here is what I usually write about such momentless moments ... )

    I just had the strangest experience during one of my meditation sessions. So strange in fact that I'm not sure words can express the experience. I was in a deep state and had been meditating for around an hour. I was feeling a profound sense of peace when all of a sudden it was like the curtain of my mind fell away and exposed
    Last edited by Jundo; 08-01-2016, 05:54 AM.
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    • Byokan
      Treeleaf Unsui
      • Apr 2014
      • 4289

      #3
      Poof.

      Goofy!

      Gassho
      Byōkan
      sat today
      展道 渺寛 Tendō Byōkan
      Please take my words with a big grain of salt. I know nothing. Wisdom is only found in our whole-hearted practice together.

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      • Kyonin
        Treeleaf Priest / Engineer
        • Oct 2010
        • 6749

        #4
        Hi K!

        Sometimes I think we zen people tend to talk too much. But if you think about it, we have to use a lot of words to explain that Nothing is good.

        Sometimes we have these kind of experiences, but as with any other zazen experience, just enjoy it for what it is and then go about your day.

        All I can say is I have been there.

        But now I'm here in the middle of a workday with a lot of laundry piled up. That is also poof

        Gassho,

        Kyonin
        #SatToday
        Hondō Kyōnin
        奔道 協忍

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        • Ongen
          Member
          • Jan 2014
          • 786

          #5
          This made me laugh, (in a good way) thank you Kliff, I always enjoy your posts.

          Gassho
          Ongen

          Sat today
          Ongen (音源) - Sound Source

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          • Jundo
            Treeleaf Founder and Priest
            • Apr 2006
            • 40351

            #6
            Originally posted by kliffkapus

            I don't want to over-talk this but I had a moment where everything just went "poof". The phrase "body and mind drop off" definitely came to mind.
            Gee, Kliff ... some month you are having! First, you get Enlightened above ...

            ... but then you get ANGRY!

            Anger after zazen


            Am I the only one who sometimes feels irritable after zazen? I have no idea where this is coming from. I'm tempted to say it's my sore back or pain in the knees or a numb leg or my kid who opened the door and barged in to the room or myself for not locking the door or my wife for asking me to do something before I left the


            ... and then I see it is your birthday too! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

            Fortunately, we Buddhists don't quite believe in passing time ...



            Gassho, J

            SatToday
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            • Hoko
              Member
              • Aug 2009
              • 456

              #7
              Lol.
              Thanks, Jundo.
              It HAS been a great month!

              I'm on the road from Portland to Crater Lake Oregon today.
              Got up at 4 am and stumbled to the bathroom.
              I didn't remember it was my birthday until my wife reminded me!

              That's when I "realized" I turned 47 & I was happy. Before that I was just tired.
              Very enlightening.

              As for the enlightenment experience the more time that passes (doesn't pass) the more I wonder if I didn't just fall asleep. A koan: Realizing one is interconnected with the universe and nodding off are just a hair's breadth apart. ;-)

              Anger? It's like reverse arthritis. The older I get the easier it is to keep at bay. I can't make it go away completely but I can still amble about.

              Meditating in the car with eyes half closed I can't tell if I'm moving forward or moving backwards. The car is moving, the Earth is moving, the universe is moving.
              All of us are doing zazen.

              Reading your birthday wish from Japan while I split the air in Oregon; soaring down the I-5 with my loved ones in the car I realize that heaven fits inside a 4 door rental.
              Life is beautiful.

              Thanks again for the birthday wishes!

              Gassho,
              K2
              #SatToday


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