I Quit

[Taigu]

Well undone, sweetie

Gassho


T.

[Shokai]

This is G-R-E-A-T !!
So, when do we get to see a picture of Emmy?
(and don't tell us they don't have cameras out in B.C. )

gassho,

[KellyRok]

Wonderful post Treena! It's when you quit that you fully realize you can truly begin...again and again and again.

Gassho,
Kelly/Jinmei

[Joyo]

thank you everyone, I'm glad this post inspired so many other people. It's amazing how that ego can creep in to our subconscious, now, as I sit, no more ego, just sitting with no "games"

And Shokai, I know, I tried posting one the other day but I think it had too many pixels. So how do I make it smaller? I also have a facebook picture that I could post, but I'm not sure how to do that since that picture is from my mom's facebook account (I'm from Saskatchewan, so no, there are no cameras here )

Gassho everyone!!

[Dosho]

Deep bows Emmy...a wonderful lesson for us all.

Gassho,
Dosho

[Seimyo]

Well done Emmy! Like Dosho said, a very good lesson for us all.

Gassho
Seimyo

[Joyo]

This is G-R-E-A-T !!
So, when do we get to see a picture of Emmy?
(and don't tell us they don't have cameras out in B.C. )

gassho,

Well, I got it to work. So, yes, now i can prove we do have cameras, even in Saskatchewan!!!

And my apologies for the confusion, but my name is actually Treena. I read tonight that we are supposed to use our real name, not our avatar name. So, from now on I will sign as Treena.

Gassho

[Ed]

Kidd you not. After 7 years I quit about a month ago. It all became a hassle, a burden; I wans't finishing books, zazen alone felt a waste.
Still at sangha I was able to sit the 40 mx2; but at the end I knew it was over, no more Zen Buddhism for moi.
Then I got sick. A zit in my nose became...wel disgusting. Dr said take all thes anitbiotics or you WILL die soon. Some thing about nose being connected to the brain...I digres. Then not even sangha, took pleasure in having an excuse not to go. I remained in a detached mood for a week and a half, full of penecillin and some painkillers.
Somewhere in there I sat. Change my Enso timer to 20m from 30 and Just friggin sat.
I remember dropping monkeymind easier than ever before. I just sat!
Now it is becoming a real regular 5 am thingy.
Well, there it is. Dump the crap and breath.
In gassho,
Ed

[Jundo]

Wonderful Ed! That pimple was a Third Eye!

Gassho, J

[Joyo]

Ed, 5am, wow that is fantastic!! And yeah, best meditation advice--just dump the crap and breath

Gassho,
Treena

[Shokai]

Well, there it is. Dump the crap and breath(e).

Ya gotta love it, perhaps we should consider an addendum to our motto

[Mp]

Ya gotta love it, perhaps we should consider an addendum to our motto

I second that ... wonderful Ed, just wonderful.

Gassho
Shingen

[Ed]

Jundo, I went to the Dr reluctantly. When I saw his face it scared me to the bone. He did say I was there just in time. Now it seems the problem was part of the attitude and the result part of the practice. Even as I quit I was never sure what it was I was quiting, but things got simplified mucho fast.
In gassho to all in this active sangha,
Ed

[Kaishin]

Great! And never matter when (not if!) the clouds return. The sky is still there

[Jundo]

Great! And never matter when (not if!) the clouds return. The sky is still there

Oh, this is so so so vital!

For Shikantaza to really be "Right" (strange as it sounds) it must be "right just as it is" even on those many days when it feels all wrong! If it is only "Right" when feeling "right", it is not truly transcendent and encompassing of "right or wrong" on an off the cushion.

More here ...

Right Zazen and Wrong Zazen

http://www.treeleaf.org/forums/showthread.php?7573-SPECIAL-REPOST-Right-Zazen-and-Wrong-Zazen

It is crazy-sane that way ... and very much unlike most of life which we constant worry about "measuring up" and "getting right". We "get it right" by sitting beyond "getting right", and we "get it wrong" when we try too hard to "measure up and get it just right"

Gassho, J