Lost my Zen

[TracyF]

Gregor, I so sorry to hear about your Grandma and Dad. I hope things improve for them. Take care.

[Gregor]

Thanks for the kind words and encouragement from everybody, It means a lot to me right now.

Things for my Father look better he's back home and doing alright, I just got back from visiting my grandmother in the hospital . . . not good news there the cancer is pretty widespread. I don't imagine she has too much time left.

Even though I fully understand the inevitability of death and separation from loved ones, this is not an easy thing to go through. But, I'm doing my best not to resist the pain, another part of life I suppose.

I'm reminded of the five remembrances of the Buddha, and it's a helpful teaching for this.

thanks again.

[Komoku]

Gregor,

Take care of yourself, buddy. Do what you can to make them comfortable and be with them.

[Jundo]

Birth and death are two sides of the coin, and we stand in the middle.

Greg, losing someone you love, or being with them while ill, is one of the great Practice places. I know it is hard, but you are wise and strong. Bear witness to it all. I am sure you, just by being there, are a great comfort to both your dad and grandmother.

Our thoughts are all with you. Please let us know if we can offer anything to help.

Gassho, Jundo

[Rev R]

Hey Gregor,

Don't have anything sagely to add, but stay strong bro.

[louis]

Greg, I'll be thinking of you and your family.
Deep respectful bow to your grandmother and father.

Gassho,
Louis

[Gregor]

Thanks again,

I appreciate the support. Just another part of life. No old age and death, no extinction of old age and death. . .

[Undo]

All the best Gregor

[paige]

I didn't notice this thread before....

I'm sorry to hear of your family's health troubles, Gregor. I'll be keeping them - and you - in my thoughts.

[Mika]

May the force be with you Greg.

Speaking of losing Zen and atoning... should we consider only the outward actions, how we react outside, or also how we react inside to some situations? I too get frustrated with people and angry at them but rarely - if ever - let it show; the worst I'll do is leave and perhaps avoid contact with someone for a while, silently cursing them for being such an idiot. :roll:

Of course in Zen we don't try to reach any eternally blissful state where we would be devoid of emotions like Spock, but I think we should be able to kind of "shrug off" the strong impulses - also in the mind, so we don't dwell in them?

[Keishin]

lost my zen

Ah, Greg as with your cool and all of Jundo's video sit-a-longs:

Zer eez nozzen' to attain, zer eez nozzen' to lose