Split Thread: Kensho, Satori, Enlightenment and Everything!!

[Jakugan]

Damn it, Shingen gets Kensho and all I get is smashing a bunch of bugs with a stick. This zen thing is completely unfair! hahaha

For some reason this "style" really resonates with me right now. I think when I first started meditation I was chasing calmness and relaxation, then I was chasing some profound life changing experience, and now I'm not chasing anything. In fact I'm pretty sure there is nothing to catch. So, while I don't claim to have anything figured out or to be particularly good at anything Zen or Buddhist, I am quite content with this situation.

Now it is time to visit Shingen's summit... as soon as I get my zafu cover back on.

Gassho,
Nengyo

I used to be like this when I approached meditation. It sometimes felt like I had to struggle to achieve some perfect mindset that I thought I was supposed to be at. Since doing zazen I can see what I was doing wrong. Ironically, I've found it much easier to get to a place of calmness without trying to get anywhere at all.

Gassho,

Simon