Re: Great interview excerpt about spiritual disappointment
Stephanie, i have some idea of what you mean. i too feel a bit jaded since i moved to another place with my girlfriend (now fiancee). i moved to another city and started working and continued to study. we went through a lot of shit and very hard times that we difficult and testing for both of us. and i feel i have become colder and much more tired and drained by life. it is like all i do is survive and not really live at all. i became detached, lost my way and felt forced to become and much more closed person than i used to be. it is like life was grinding me to a point that i was becoming someone i did not like. became angrier, shorter fuse, always tired and exhausted, just miserable! but in the end i noticed it and decided to start working on it. i wont say that its perfect now, but it is a start. what i mean is even though changing your environment might really help it wont change you. you have to change the way you look at thins and start accepting things as they are. yes they still look like shit and yes you might still want and maybe even should move. but it is just life and you will just let it be life. getting angry worrying and being stressed about something. it might weigh on you heavily and bring you down. but you might just work on it and than drop it until the next time you need to deal with it. not carry the anger misery and dissatisfaction in your heart. just let it be... like the Beatles song.
Gassho, Dojin.
Stephanie, i have some idea of what you mean. i too feel a bit jaded since i moved to another place with my girlfriend (now fiancee). i moved to another city and started working and continued to study. we went through a lot of shit and very hard times that we difficult and testing for both of us. and i feel i have become colder and much more tired and drained by life. it is like all i do is survive and not really live at all. i became detached, lost my way and felt forced to become and much more closed person than i used to be. it is like life was grinding me to a point that i was becoming someone i did not like. became angrier, shorter fuse, always tired and exhausted, just miserable! but in the end i noticed it and decided to start working on it. i wont say that its perfect now, but it is a start. what i mean is even though changing your environment might really help it wont change you. you have to change the way you look at thins and start accepting things as they are. yes they still look like shit and yes you might still want and maybe even should move. but it is just life and you will just let it be life. getting angry worrying and being stressed about something. it might weigh on you heavily and bring you down. but you might just work on it and than drop it until the next time you need to deal with it. not carry the anger misery and dissatisfaction in your heart. just let it be... like the Beatles song.
Gassho, Dojin.
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