NOTICE FROM JUNDO: IT'S JUKAI TIME .... AGAIN!

ScottyDoo · 07-26-2009, 06:55 PM

Re: NOTICE FROM JUNDO: IT'S JUKAI TIME .... AGAIN!

Originally posted by ZenDave

Jukai has been on my mind alot recently. It's a funny thing with me though. I feel almost a fear of commitment is the best way to describe I believe.

I enjoy sitting. I haven't found anything in the Way so far that doesn't sit well or resonate with me.

I think of buying some more reading materials, making my mini-zendo area a bit nicer. I plan on things like setting up an altar, buying a decent zafu/zabuton set, sewing my rakusu( am excited about it really..all of it..maybe even exhilerated? ).

I'm turning into a zazen junkie. Am sooo close to sitting proper burmese it almost makes me wanna weep with joy.

Then I think, " Where is all this coming from because i'm not even sure I am taking my precepts even if I plan on taking part in the jukai study and am actually supremely excitable in regards to the upcoming ango."

*shrugs* Anyone else felt/feel like that?

_/_ evad

You are not alone in this feeling.

I took refuge with a Tibetan lama nearly a year ago, as well as received my Bodhisattva vows. The odd thing to me however is how casual it all seemed. I had read of others experiences with the refuge ceremony as well as with the Bodhisattva vows and this was NOTHING like it. Maybe it's simply that the true vow has nothing to do with the pomp and circumstance and it is only that I had a preconceived idea of what I thought it would be.

With that said however, as I reflect upon this commitment, I can see that although I may technically be considered a “Bona Fide Official Buddhist" (to use the words of Jundo) already, I feel as if I want to further my commitment to something more direct or specific. It's funny to me as well because I am someone who "has issues" with authority, formality, and ceremony, due to (perhaps) my attachment to previous religious experience, yet at the same time I am drawn to it and want to be a part of it. Perhaps it's because, to me, with the Jukai ceremony, it does not feel empty to me as other ridiculous (impo) religious ceremonies I have been involved with before.

I have serious commitment issues in my life it seems (committing to (insert anything), following through with said commitments, etc, etc.) yet the one thing that I have felt the most drive to commit to and honor is the Dharma, and specifically along the Zen path. That to me says something. My actions don't always match that of my heart, but I'm working to have those line up more evenly.

Shonin · 07-26-2009, 02:28 AM

Re: NOTICE FROM JUNDO: IT'S JUKAI TIME .... AGAIN!

Jukai has been on my mind alot recently. It's a funny thing with me though. I feel almost a fear of commitment is the best way to describe I believe.

I enjoy sitting. I haven't found anything in the Way so far that doesn't sit well or resonate with me.

I think of buying some more reading materials, making my mini-zendo area a bit nicer. I plan on things like setting up an altar, buying a decent zafu/zabuton set, sewing my rakusu( am excited about it really..all of it..maybe even exhilerated? ).

I'm turning into a zazen junkie. Am sooo close to sitting proper burmese it almost makes me wanna weep with joy.

Then I think, " Where is all this coming from because i'm not even sure I am taking my precepts even if I plan on taking part in the jukai study and am actually supremely excitable in regards to the upcoming ango."

*shrugs* Anyone else felt/feel like that?

_/_ evad

NOTICE FROM JUNDO: IT'S JUKAI TIME .... AGAIN!

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