Pushing against "self / nature" to do "difficult" things

[Seiko]

My twopenneth - my work is for a large national organisation in UK with an unweildy management structure and a frustrating habit of changing the goalposts at the last minute, but if I left, I wouldn't be there to serve/help our service users. So I choose to stay.

Gasshō
Seiko
stlah

[Jishin]

I cannot control the people in my life
Or where I'll go, or what I'll face
I cannot control the twists and turns
Of fate's uncertain, winding race

But though I cannot hold the reins
Of all that happens round about
I have control of how I think
And what actions I choose to tout

I can choose to see the good
In every person, place, and thing
I can choose to act with kindness
And a joyful, grateful wing

So though the world may spin and swirl
And bring me joy or bring me pain
I'll hold the reins of my own mind
And choose to love, to hope, to gain.

Gassho, Jishin, ST, LAH

[Spiritdove]

This is how I deal with it. I am not about changing what others do. Its about what I do and if its the right thing. I don't do things for rewards or worry about punishment aka some kind of karmic affect. For to me its always intent. I do it the best I can and let go of the results. What others do is what they do. You put energy into controlling things I rather put energy into doing good actions instead. Trying to fix things that which is broken its best to start fresh with anew each day. It is never about what "they " do. Its what I do . In the end nothing in this world has any meaning. I give it meaning. this is an atheist pagan perspective . And it harm none do as you please that's including yourself. I do not feel there aren't any Buddhists. Buddha is all there is. Being awake aka enlightened is also in my path. I wake up each day being born again each day. I do the best not to drag a wagon behind me carrying all the regrets and baggage I have acquired in my past. I do bad things I work to at doing better, Perfect ? yes I am perfect. because "I find no idea of lack" does not mean I can not do something new and learn something new. I got rid of that lacking mind when I was in a religion. Sharing is caring. my 2cents worth.

Marj "Spiritdove"
Sat today 2x