How does Zazen feel?

[Shonin]

I for one can tell a difference in my thoughts when i practice steadily. Even on a bad day ( the holidays are rough and full of triggers for me) I am just calmer. Less prone to long strings of profanity when i get frustrated. It has really reshaped my life. It doesn't solve the problems just how I view and react to them. Like others have said I try to let the bad days be bad days and the good days be good days.
Recently a friend of mine was engaging in dark humor and noticed I wasn't responding likewise and made a comment to another friend present that I had "grown a heart". Made me laugh. But people do notice. I chalk it up to zazen and trying to follow the precepts. Is this what we would call awakening?
Dave
SAT/LAH

[Shoki]

I, like I'd bet a lot of people, feel all kinds of things during zazen. Even if I feel calm and serene, that's nice but it's more of a byproduct of sitting. I don't get so hung up on it.

For some reason, lately I've been feeling impatient during zazen. I have things to do today. Chores, tasks, etc. If I'm going to be impatient today, then I'll be impatient. This feeling will not last.

While reading the section of The Zen Master's Dance I was struck by Jundo's writing of how time moves. An analogy came to mind of time being like watching a Youtube video. You know how that dot on the bottom of the screen moves along as the video plays? Time is kind of like that dot moving across the screen while watching and listening. You can think of that funny thing from 30 seconds ago or the scary thing happening now or what will happen in two minutes in the video, but....that dot is "where it's at".

Gassho
ST-lah
Shoki