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  • TracyF
    Member
    • Nov 2007
    • 188

    The Sangha Dunce Speaks

    These monthly zazenkais really help.

    I don't start many threads because I have a bad habit of intellectualizing everything and I'm trying to avoid that. Plus, I always feel like the slow one in the class because people are always talking about their "experiences" and I don't seem to have any "experiences". ops:

    On the other hand, I did figure out a few things about Shikantaza and both times it happened during a four hour zazenkai.

    The first was the concept of "just sitting" as in don't concentrate on things, dummy! During Buddha's birthday zazenkai, I realized that I had been trying to concentrate on certain things for months. I knew intellectually that Shikantaza doesn't require that but when I stopped doing it and just sat back and was aware of the moment, I realized what I was doing before. (Actually, this kind of reminds me of gymnastics when you don't know you were doing something a certain way until you do it the 'proper' way)

    The second time was today. I think I was drifting back to "trying too hard" once again but today I realized what "radical goal-lessness" meant. I was sitting during the first zazen session with Jundo and the gang when I noticed that one of my bras was hanging off my Buddha statue's shoulder (Buddha sometimes sits near the laundry basket. Apparently I missed). So I put the bra completely on the Buddha and had a good snicker. Then came judgmental brain, chastising me for goofing around during zazen and I'll never reach my goal, blah, blah, blah. Then I realized, "what goal?" Wow! What a difference that made for the rest of the mini-retreat. Hard to explain though but it was like buttah. :wink: I realized that what I thought I understood during Buddha's birthday still needed tweaking.

    So, as you can see, Tracy's slowly plodding along but hasn't quit yet. Can anyone relate or am I really the dunce in the class? :lol:

    ***As a side note, not having a camera has its benefits, doesn't it?***** :wink:
  • Dainin
    Member
    • Sep 2007
    • 389

    #2
    Re: The Sangha Dunce Speaks

    Hey Tracy,

    Excellent and thoughtful post (as usual). I can certainly relate. You're not the only dunce, you know!

    Gassho,
    Keith

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    • will
      Member
      • Jun 2007
      • 2331

      #3
      Re: The Sangha Dunce Speaks

      Count me in on the dunce club.

      Gassho
      [size=85:z6oilzbt]
      To save all sentient beings, though beings are numberless.
      To penetrate reality, though reality is boundless.
      To transform all delusion, though delusions are immeasurable.
      To attain the enlightened way, a way non-attainable.
      [/size:z6oilzbt]

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      • Jundo
        Treeleaf Founder and Priest
        • Apr 2006
        • 39392

        #4
        Re: The Sangha Dunce Speaks

        Originally posted by TracyF
        I was sitting during the first zazen session with Jundo and the gang when I noticed that one of my bras was hanging off my Buddha statue's shoulder
        Buddha's Bra ... One size fits all. {snicker snicker}
        ALL OF LIFE IS OUR TEMPLE

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        • KellyRok
          Member
          • Jul 2008
          • 1374

          #5
          Re: The Sangha Dunce Speaks

          Hello Tracy,

          I'm a dunce too...I feel like a baby trying to walk for the first time. Fumbling around, falling backwards on your tush, but never giving up, just keep on trying...then once you take that first step...ahhh, you find it leads to another, and another and another.

          Thank you for sharing your very honest and funny experience. It definitely helps to know that others are having the same experiences as I am. Buddha with a bra :lol: - you just made my day!

          Gassho,
          Kelly Rok

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          • Eika
            Member
            • Sep 2007
            • 806

            #6
            Re: The Sangha Dunce Speaks

            I thought it was a Manzier.
            [size=150:m8cet5u6]??[/size:m8cet5u6] We are involved in a life that passes understanding and our highest business is our daily life---John Cage

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            • TracyF
              Member
              • Nov 2007
              • 188

              #7
              Re: The Sangha Dunce Speaks

              Or a Bro! :mrgreen:

              Buddha Bro: it lifts, separates and transforms delusions. :wink:

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              • Eika
                Member
                • Sep 2007
                • 806

                #8
                Re: The Sangha Dunce Speaks

                Originally posted by TracyF
                Or a Bro! :mrgreen:

                Buddha Bro: it lifts, separates and transforms delusions. :wink:
                :lol:
                [size=150:m8cet5u6]??[/size:m8cet5u6] We are involved in a life that passes understanding and our highest business is our daily life---John Cage

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                • Tb
                  Member
                  • Jan 2008
                  • 3186

                  #9
                  Re: The Sangha Dunce Speaks

                  Hi.

                  You're not the only dunce, we all have bad hair days...
                  The main thing not to forget is that they're there for a reason, what if everything in life were easy?
                  How would that feel?

                  Be grateful that you have something to sink your teeth in and remember this moment when you "break through".

                  May the force be with you
                  Tb
                  Life is our temple and its all good practice
                  Blog: http://fugenblog.blogspot.com/

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                  • Shohei
                    Member
                    • Oct 2007
                    • 2854

                    #10
                    Re: The Sangha Dunce Speaks

                    I read sangha dunce and immediately thought ... is me. seriously :B

                    im cool with my daftness. ... i realized early on that my Zen doesnt need a scholarly pursuit right now*. Perhaps if i live long enough to retire i will look then. right now ill expend that energy in making myself sit down and chasing the kid(s) and just living it- rather than reading about how long dead masters lived theirs.
                    *i dont think i COULD im perdy dense


                    Or a Bro!

                    Buddha Bro: it lifts, separates and transforms delusions.
                    ROFL!!

                    Gassho
                    Dunce

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                    • will
                      Member
                      • Jun 2007
                      • 2331

                      #11
                      Re: The Sangha Dunce Speaks

                      Playtex Cross Your Heart Sutra.
                      LOL
                      [size=85:z6oilzbt]
                      To save all sentient beings, though beings are numberless.
                      To penetrate reality, though reality is boundless.
                      To transform all delusion, though delusions are immeasurable.
                      To attain the enlightened way, a way non-attainable.
                      [/size:z6oilzbt]

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                      • CinnamonGal
                        Member
                        • Apr 2008
                        • 195

                        #12
                        Re: The Sangha Dunce Speaks

                        Hey Tracy,

                        Thanks for the post.

                        We can have the Slow Olympics soon and see who wins :roll: . I am slow and I am enjoying it: I just figured out (after decades!) that I am not really in a hurry, nope, not really. So I take it real slow these days. Even intellectualise... slowly :wink:

                        Hope to be able to join you and the rest of the "slow club" for the next zazenkai.

                        Yours slow,

                        Irina
                        http://appropriteresponse.wordpress.com

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                        • roky
                          Member
                          • Jul 2008
                          • 311

                          #13
                          Re: The Sangha Dunce Speaks

                          steve hagen, in one of his books, had a thing about how this isn't like all the other races we've run -- with this target, as you get closer to the center, each circle is actually less points(like getting to wear funny hats, and having a dharma name) -- only the absolute center counts, and who can hit that?(nobody :wink: ) -- so you're actually better off hitting the outermost ring -- more of the "beginner's mind" thing

                          come to think of it, nobody seems to win these zen things all the time!

                          gassho, bob
                          "no resistance"
                          thaddeus golas

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                          • Shindo
                            Member
                            • Mar 2008
                            • 278

                            #14
                            Re: The Sangha Dunce Speaks

                            Tracy
                            I have spent most of my life feeling stupid & this Soto Zen malarky is no different. However, the older I get (45) the more comfortable I get with my ignorance and am prepared to admit it.
                            I also found the zazenkai on Saturday of benefit. I have noticed the effects of the extended practice throughout the week.
                            Kind regards
                            Jools

                            ps - I will adjust the webcam next time so I am more recognisable & so it's not just a view of my nostrils
                            [color=#404040:301177ix]"[i:301177ix]I come to realize that mind is no other than mountains and rivers and the great wide earth, the sun and the moon and star[/i:301177ix]s". - [b:301177ix]Dogen[/b:301177ix][/color:301177ix]

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                            • TracyF
                              Member
                              • Nov 2007
                              • 188

                              #15
                              Re: The Sangha Dunce Speaks

                              Originally posted by HezB
                              Playtex Cross Your Heart Sutra.

                              Regards,

                              H.
                              Originally posted by CinnamonGal
                              We can have the Slow Olympics soon and see who wins
                              Originally posted by Jools
                              so it's not just a view of my nostrils
                              :lol:

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