My daughter recently moved to Hawaii, and at times, I still deal with sadness. Holidays, even minor ones like yesterday (Memorial Day in the US), tend to trigger it more. Intellectually, I know it is best that she is happy and finding her way, as is the natural order of things. Yet, the sadness still comes upon me. Last night, after a bit of crying, it was time to sit my evening Zazen practice. As I sat down to begin, I remember thinking to myself sarcastically, "This is going to be fun" Sure enough, as I sat, the tears came. I thought about just stopping Zazen all together, then something happened. I could almost hear Jundo saying, "Just sit with the sadness". So I did. All I can say is, and language fails here, it was liberating. I learned much from my Zazen last night.
Sorry for going a bit long
Gassho,
John
SatTodayLAH
Sorry for going a bit long
Gassho,
John
SatTodayLAH
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