Hello All,
I would like to first begin with an apology. I have been swarmed this month with beginning work again after a six month hiatus, as well as physical and mental health issues.
I have completed my TMS treatments. I do believe that they have helped me somewhat. The treatments began late August and continued every day. They were short; between 10-20 minutes. Doctors and Psychiatrists ask me how I’m feeling and it’s hard to describe. I understand that this treatment isn’t perfect. It will not completely remove my depression and anxiety. More like a hand to hold while I experience these feelings. I will say that, “The Pit” as I like to call it, rears its head less than before treatment began. However, the strength and intensity emitted by The Pit is still very much alive in my mind. It pops up or rather, I fall in, a few times a week. The thoughts that follow are violent, overwhelming, and down right scary. They leave as quickly as they came most of the time.
Anxiety has improved a little. I no longer need to consistently take my anxiety medication each day; sometimes multiple times a day.
As for physical health, I’m having some issues. Fibro is acting up which could be triggered by stress (Very possible). I’m using a cane regularly now to help me get around. There are days at work that are extremely painful. During my breaks I often lay down in the break room in hopes to lessen the pain.
I have been having stomach issues throughout my life. Needing to take time off, hospital visits, and an endoscopy. It has been narrowed down to two possibilities: ulcers or Dyspepsia which mimic stomach ulcers. Either way it isn’t much fun. I had to come home early from work yesterday. I’ve been taking over the counter medicines with varied results.
With all of this going on I have been feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. I think about our Sangha; those that also suffer with myriad ailments. I’m happy that this thread exists where we can share with each other and offer strength and support.
Thank you for everything that you do and everything that you are. [emoji1431]
Gasshō,
On
Sat today
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I would like to first begin with an apology. I have been swarmed this month with beginning work again after a six month hiatus, as well as physical and mental health issues.
I have completed my TMS treatments. I do believe that they have helped me somewhat. The treatments began late August and continued every day. They were short; between 10-20 minutes. Doctors and Psychiatrists ask me how I’m feeling and it’s hard to describe. I understand that this treatment isn’t perfect. It will not completely remove my depression and anxiety. More like a hand to hold while I experience these feelings. I will say that, “The Pit” as I like to call it, rears its head less than before treatment began. However, the strength and intensity emitted by The Pit is still very much alive in my mind. It pops up or rather, I fall in, a few times a week. The thoughts that follow are violent, overwhelming, and down right scary. They leave as quickly as they came most of the time.
Anxiety has improved a little. I no longer need to consistently take my anxiety medication each day; sometimes multiple times a day.
As for physical health, I’m having some issues. Fibro is acting up which could be triggered by stress (Very possible). I’m using a cane regularly now to help me get around. There are days at work that are extremely painful. During my breaks I often lay down in the break room in hopes to lessen the pain.
I have been having stomach issues throughout my life. Needing to take time off, hospital visits, and an endoscopy. It has been narrowed down to two possibilities: ulcers or Dyspepsia which mimic stomach ulcers. Either way it isn’t much fun. I had to come home early from work yesterday. I’ve been taking over the counter medicines with varied results.
With all of this going on I have been feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. I think about our Sangha; those that also suffer with myriad ailments. I’m happy that this thread exists where we can share with each other and offer strength and support.
Thank you for everything that you do and everything that you are. [emoji1431]
Gasshō,
On
Sat today
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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