7/15 ZEN SEEDS: P. 11, P. 13 (INTRO)

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  • disastermouse

    #31
    Re: 7/15 ZEN SEEDS: P. 11, P. 13 (INTRO)

    Answer #1:

    When I first came back from art school and began sitting and walking meditation, there was an event that symbolizes 'going with the flow' for me. My father, my brother, and myself were on our way into town one night during a typically sub-zero UP winter driving the old Ford Escort my father had just inherited from his father who had very recently died. We lived way out in the woods at that time and at some point, maybe 3 or 4 miles out from home, the car broke down. I don't remember the nature of the malfunction, but it necessitated abandoning our trip and walking home. My father was pissed and began a tirade of urgent complaints directed at the unreliability of cars in general (He was a mechanic). My father was a world-class complainer - a real champion of the craft. Once he got on a roll, frequently a multi-hour roll, he was like a force of nature. Of course, being the eternally contrary son that I was, I would very often try to inject positive counter-arguments, complaints of my own, anything I could think of to stop the incessant bitching. (Side note: I inherited this trait from him, LOL.) As you might imagine, this only infuriated him all the more. On this particular night, I'd been quite recently enjoying a lot of my meditation. I ignored his complaining and just enjoyed the walk...after a while, I started commenting on how beautiful the night was and how lucky we were to all be walking together (we didn't get very much time like this anymore), I wasn't trying to get my father to stop complaining - for all I cared, he could complain the whole time - I still loved him. I didn't argue with him, I just enjoyed myself. And then something weird happened...my father was silent for awhile, and then before I knew it, we were all laughing and joking.

    As for swimming against the current....let's just say that there's a reason the previous event stands out in my mind.

    Answer #2:

    When I look in the mirror, I see curiosity....but I know that many other faces also appear. I don't even want to try at the koan, sorry.

    Chet

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    • ChrisA
      Member
      • Jun 2011
      • 312

      #32
      Re: 7/15 ZEN SEEDS: P. 11, P. 13 (INTRO)

      Originally posted by shards
      In my mirror I see someone who is content. However, I also see someone who is striving to maintain that contentment. Lastly, I see someone who is trying to not strive. All the while just being content with the striving and non-striving.
      Ditto that -- at least on days when I can go with the flow! (I'm a bit less laid back than you, I think, Shawn!)
      Chris Seishi Amirault
      (ZenPedestrian)

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      • Dosho
        Member
        • Jun 2008
        • 5784

        #33
        Re: 7/15 ZEN SEEDS: P. 11, P. 13 (INTRO)

        Originally posted by Jundo
        QUESTION: MAYBE DESCRIBE A TIME IN YOUR LIFE YOU FLOWED WITH LIFE'S EVENTS LIKE A RIVER. MAYBE A TIME YOU FELT LIKE YOU WERE SWIMMING AGAINST THE CURRENT.
        For the majority of my life I have tried desperately to swim against the current and not with it. A view from above would invariably found me flowing with the tide when taking a larger view, but upon closer inspection find that I was doing everything possible to convince myself I was "winning" by swiming upstream. Complete and utter delusion of my true flow with the events of life's river was my constant companion...until finding all of you folks. It is impossible to pinpoint one instance where I did this more than any other as it was a life dedicated to denial and never just allowing myself to be. This was the lesson I was taught as a child and a teaching my parents still follow to this day. I am grateful that Treeleaf and its participants allowed me to see what I had been doing and showed me another path. But it is not like I immediately chose to stop flowing against the tide and never have again. I do it every day! But fortunately for me I have seen that there is a unified river to travel; one that accepts us even when we have fought for so long, accepting us back every time and showing us the way that is clear.

        Originally posted by Jundo
        QUESTION: LOOK AT YOUR OWN FACE IN THE MIRROR FOR A MINUTE. DESCRIBE THE KIND(S) OF FACE YOU SEE.
        When I went into the bathroom to look at my face and although I look into the mirror every day I'm not sure I had looked at my face in a very long time. Some of this is because of how hurried we are in the morning and night to do other things, but also because I usually don't have my glasses on! I saw some winkles and gray hairs I do not remember being there before, but a hesitance to look deeply was clear. I shall have to try this again sometime...soon. Perhaps I will find even more of interest. But that hesitance is based in the idea that I am ugly. For example, I have never noticed that one of my ears appears significantly lower than the other. However, when I say ugly I speak of something deeper...but I am not ugly nor is anyone really except for that sense of self we dwell in where we tell ourselves lies. Some were told to us by other children, some by adults with so much pain they automatically deflect it onto others. But shall I ever see my true face? I think so...just not yet. Practice, practice.

        Thank you for your teachings.

        Gassho,
        Dosho

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        • Graceleejenkins
          Member
          • Feb 2011
          • 434

          #34
          Re: 7/15 ZEN SEEDS: P. 11, P. 13 (INTRO)

          Originally posted by Dosho
          Originally posted by Jundo
          Originally posted by Jundo
          QUESTION: LOOK AT YOUR OWN FACE IN THE MIRROR FOR A MINUTE. DESCRIBE THE KIND(S) OF FACE YOU SEE.
          When I went into the bathroom to look at my face and although I look into the mirror every day I'm not sure I had looked at my face in a very long time. Some of this is because of how hurried we are in the morning and night to do other things, but also because I usually don't have my glasses on! I saw some winkles and gray hairs I do not remember being there before, but a hesitance to look deeply was clear. I shall have to try this again sometime...soon. Perhaps I will find even more of interest. But that hesitance is based in the idea that I am ugly. For example, I have never noticed that one of my ears appears significantly lower than the other. However, when I say ugly I speak of something deeper...but I am not ugly nor is anyone really except for that sense of self we dwell in where we tell ourselves lies. Gassho,
          Dosho
          Dosho, if you are ugly on the outside, you must be be very photogenic and take a great picture! I know from Tea Parties and the sound of your voice that you are definitely not ugly on the inside! Gassho, Grace.
          Sat today and 10 more in honor of Treeleaf's 10th Anniversary!

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