Zazen, Shikantaza, is --not-- about learning to relax or feel happy. Sorry, but folks who are looking for such things from Zazen are sadly mistaken. Zazen will not make life in this ordinary world always a fun vacation, a never ending high, a paradise without sometime tears. Zazen is about the Great Matter of Life and Death, Shikantaza is not a matter about how one feels or thinks in any changing instant of the day.
But here is the Koany Katch ...
Shikantaza Zazen is sitting that is complete as sitting, not one thing to add or seek whatever comes, and remains complete and whole Shikantaza whether our life feels relaxed or not relaxed, happy or sad or in between or otherwise at any particular moment. What is just is, and that is fine. At the same time, in sitting, one does not get caught up in passing thoughts and emotions either, and simply observes without grabbing on or being pulled in: lf stressed, just be stressed and let go and let the stress be. lf grieving at loss or otherwise sad, just be sad and grieve as if witness to the passing theatre show that your heart and mind plays. Do not be pulled into anger even if your heart may be starting to anger, do not become a prisoner of fear even if afraid for a time. .
One might say that such radical allowance and acceptance is the ultimate Buddha Peace which sweeps in small human measures and experiences of "relaxed" or "not relaxed." lt is a Peace so Peaceful, that it leaps beyond whether or not we might momentarily be feeling peaceful or anything but peaceful in this daily life. lt is a Peace which even holds our passing fears. It is much like saying that there is a kind of Buddha Joy that is found both at times of small human happiness and sadness, a Joy so Joyful even when tears of loss roll down one's face. .lt is a Fealessness so Fearless that it is not in the least afraid to be sometimes fearlful, terrified and quaking in our boots! We know that, at the heart of our human fear, there is a face beyond all fear! At the heart of loss and heartbreak, there is this which can never be lost or broken.
Then, even death and birth do not feel so hard and final as lines and borders, the small self drops away, all flows into all, and the Great Matter of Life and Death is clear. .Such is the ultimate Peace, Joy and Fearlessness even as we continue to live in this sometimes chaotic, sad and oh so scary world.
That's a bit more powerful than just relaxing.
Gassho, J
STLah
But here is the Koany Katch ...
Shikantaza Zazen is sitting that is complete as sitting, not one thing to add or seek whatever comes, and remains complete and whole Shikantaza whether our life feels relaxed or not relaxed, happy or sad or in between or otherwise at any particular moment. What is just is, and that is fine. At the same time, in sitting, one does not get caught up in passing thoughts and emotions either, and simply observes without grabbing on or being pulled in: lf stressed, just be stressed and let go and let the stress be. lf grieving at loss or otherwise sad, just be sad and grieve as if witness to the passing theatre show that your heart and mind plays. Do not be pulled into anger even if your heart may be starting to anger, do not become a prisoner of fear even if afraid for a time. .
One might say that such radical allowance and acceptance is the ultimate Buddha Peace which sweeps in small human measures and experiences of "relaxed" or "not relaxed." lt is a Peace so Peaceful, that it leaps beyond whether or not we might momentarily be feeling peaceful or anything but peaceful in this daily life. lt is a Peace which even holds our passing fears. It is much like saying that there is a kind of Buddha Joy that is found both at times of small human happiness and sadness, a Joy so Joyful even when tears of loss roll down one's face. .lt is a Fealessness so Fearless that it is not in the least afraid to be sometimes fearlful, terrified and quaking in our boots! We know that, at the heart of our human fear, there is a face beyond all fear! At the heart of loss and heartbreak, there is this which can never be lost or broken.
Then, even death and birth do not feel so hard and final as lines and borders, the small self drops away, all flows into all, and the Great Matter of Life and Death is clear. .Such is the ultimate Peace, Joy and Fearlessness even as we continue to live in this sometimes chaotic, sad and oh so scary world.
That's a bit more powerful than just relaxing.
Gassho, J
STLah
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