[HealthDharma] Turning Suffering Inside Out, chapter ten, part one

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  • Kokuu
    Dharma Transmitted Priest
    • Nov 2012
    • 6848

    [HealthDharma] Turning Suffering Inside Out, chapter ten, part one

    Dear all

    This week’s reading is pages 165-174 (from the beginning of the chapter ‘Paying Attention, stopping just before ‘Critical Mind’)

    This chapter is a meaty one, dealing with the central practice of Zen – shikantaza – and the bringing of awareness to our situation. I will be dividing it up into four parts.

    Darlene begins this chapter by talking about the practice of meditation – bringing awareness to just this moment and noticing all that is going on in terms of what are senses are telling us and what is in our mind. She notes how this kind of attention can take us out of being fixated on our usual jumble of thought and instead bringing clear awareness to what is going on.
    Darlene speaks of the basic ways we can bring attention to this moment, by tuning into the sensations we are experiencing in terms of what our body is feeling, and the pattern of our breath. In the Satipatthana Sutta (The Sutta on the Four Foundations of Mindfulness), the Buddha begins by pointing out attention to our breath. She then points to other senses such as sight and hearing that we can easily tune into if we bring awareness to them.

    Darlene notes that while this kind of awareness practice is relatively easy on the cushion, or while listening to guided instructions, it is harder to maintain attentiveness throughout day to day life. However, this is a skill which can be cultivated.

    The first practice offered in this chapter is ‘Concentration Practice’ that we would call shamatha meditation, in the form of breath awareness. While this is not a practice we typically do at Treeleaf, I do think it has a place when we are working with chronic pain and illness, in giving our awareness a focus to come back to. However, that should be done in addition to Shikantaza rather than instead of it in most cases.

    Darlene talks about a San Francisco Zen Center Hallowe’en ritual in which the members give offerings to hungry ghosts and their own demons, calling them out by name. She suggests this is a very gentle and compassionate way to make peace with our flaws, and also notes that they are something we can become aware of during our sitting practice and be accepting of them in the same way.

    Desire is the first hindrance or demon which is talked about in terms of yearning for things we don’t have (rather than enjoying pleasures in the here and now) and how that can set in motion a cycle of seeking one pleasure after the next, quickly moving on when the current one no longer satisfies.


    Question prompts:

    How good is your awareness throughout the day? Does it differ from your experience on the cushion?

    When faced with pain or emotional difficulty, how does it feel to adopt this kind of awareness rather than be wrapped up in what is going on in your head? How easy is it for you to do this?


    Wishing you a healthful week.
    Gassho
    Kokuu
  • Tairin
    Member
    • Feb 2016
    • 2829

    #2
    Thank you Kokuu and everyone else reading along.

    How good is your awareness throughout the day? Does it differ from your experience on the cushion?

    I actually think my awareness throughout the day is pretty good. Obviously not at all like sitting Shikantaza where we literally have no distractions but yes pretty solid in general. I have many moments throughout the day that seem to happen quite naturally. There are other times when a few moments where I apply Insta-Zazen (tm)

    When faced with pain or emotional difficulty, how does it feel to adopt this kind of awareness rather than be wrapped up in what is going on in your head? How easy is it for you to do this?

    I think it is critical. That internal dialog/commentary seems to create a feedback loop that just gets worse and worse. Taking those moments to break the cycle helps create some space from the difficulty.


    Tairin
    Sat today and lah
    泰林 - Tai Rin - Peaceful Woods

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    • Alina
      Member
      • Jul 2023
      • 181

      #3
      How good is your awareness throughout the day? Does it differ from your experience on the cushion?
      It fluctuates depending on my circumstances, a lot. I am an introvert, and I work remotely. Many days I work mostly alone, at my own pace, and so I can stay in touch with my body, my breath and feelings more easily, I take breaks and come back to here and now. But when my day includes several meetings, or I receive many requests, new deadlines, etc, it's much harder to stay calm and my mind starts racing, I end up deflated. Slowly my practice is strengthening my "come back" muscle, and accepting that some days are simply difficult makes it easier to cope, allowing it to be what it is as a way of opening the hand of thought in the middle of the workday.

      When faced with pain or emotional difficulty, how does it feel to adopt this kind of awareness rather than be wrapped up in what is going on in your head? How easy is it for you to do this?
      This is the one thing with which this book has helped me the most. When I feel a lot of turmoil, I take a little time to stop, breathe and just feel all the raw sensations in my body, whatever that may be. It all feels even more stressful when I start feeling it fully, but I keep in touch with my breath and eventually the wave of overwhelming stress goes away, and I can find some relief. At some point during the reading of the book I started doing this, allowing life to be instead of resisting what is difficult, and I feel like I'm finally starting to find a place of peace in me in the midst of whatever the moment brings.


      Gassho
      Alina
      stlah

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      • Kaitan
        Member
        • Mar 2023
        • 547

        #4
        How good is your awareness throughout the day? Does it differ from your experience on the cushion?

        Yes, it is quite a different experience compared to the cushion, however I can definitely see a stronger 'coming-back muscle' as fruit of practice over the years. So I can tell why this path is long run.

        When faced with pain or emotional difficulty, how does it feel to adopt this kind of awareness rather than be wrapped up in what is going on in your head? How easy is it for you to do this?

        It is incredibly difficult to remember this kind of awareness, but when it happens ... there is an immense switch in my experience, I normally start laughing the moment I see myself wrapped and drowned in drama (phenomenal actors we all are). All I can tell is that it is quite spontaneous and effortless (and random), just like in zazen, but the periods in between are so large (coming back to the first question) that I can barely notice it and seems quite absent. Perhaps, in my humble opinion, is the belief that zazen ends the moment I raise from the cushion and afterwards I need to DO SOMETHING to let go instead of embracing our conditions.

        Thanks for the prompts, I just realized it was a good reflection

        stlah, Kaitan
        Last edited by Kaitan; 07-23-2024, 11:46 AM.
        Kaitan - 界探 - Realm searcher
        Formerly known as "Bernal"

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